This weekend, I woke up, again with low-energy, major body stiffness, and feeling like my body was so inflamed, that I could hardly move. Sadly, this has been my daily feeling, for quite sometime. My movements are labored and everything seems to be a chore.
I got on the scale ...and, YIKES I wanted to cry. But,I have spent a lot of time crying over my weight gain; and, low and behold, that has not helped me shed one pound or feel any better. I have cried more than one tear, about how I thought I had turned the corner on my issues with food, and really having a solid commitment to my running, and, to my overall health and wellness. But, here I sit, back at square one; most days feeling like an utter failure and wondering what the hell happened? How did I let my health and wellness take a backseat, once again!? Although the number on the scale can be pretty depressing, it is truly just a reflection of my actions (or lack there of). Or, maybe more of a reflection of the priorities in my life.
Even though I still struggle with breaking out of old patterns, the upside, I know it’s possible - I have done it and know the benefits of it, not only from a physical perspective, but, more importantly from an emotional and spiritual perspective.
So that's not my correct email just FYI. But I stumbled upon this not realizing or should I say forgetting that you had a Blog. I often find it interesting how much better it makes me feel to find others in the same situation as myself. What a terrible rotten human being I am do you want anybody to be like me but it is comforting to know I too am not alone. The amount of stress we put on our bodies be it by our own fault or the circumstances of life around us has played a major toll on my weight and body as well. I'm to the point where I'm just deciding to remove one thing I know is not good for me and see if I can make that happen. I'm tired of trying to give up everything and exercising till I can't move. thanks to covid-19 I think I'm up 5 lb. I can't wait to get out and swim as the weather warms up. Every day I wake up with a headache at night my muscles hurt so bad like deep muscle pain for no reason because I did not work out and I guess it's just my good ol fibromyalgia. But it sucks. All I can say is tomorrow is a new day. Oh and I love you. You Are Not Alone.
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